a bed of roses..?yea rite...!!

i've been sick for the past 3 days...
terribly coughing...
wateva i eat is vomited out within minutes...
n worst of all...
the damn splitting headache...
haix...

i jus don wanna go to the doctors...
seriously...
its jus a waste of money...
grrrr....
its gonna be a neva ending thing...
cos no mata how much of medicine i take..
theres gonna be no end to wat i suffer...
lol...

life isnt a bed of roses for the past few days either...
feeling so fucked up with my life....
was feelin so neglected by tat someone even wen i was sick...
and i dunno why...
a sry suddenly means nothing...
its like stabbing me in the heart purposely...
n telling me i'm sry...

call me impossible k...
but how long more can we be behaving this way..?
but the biggest joke is u noe wat i wan..
grrr..
forget it....

nieways...
i seriously gotta thank michal for looking after me n being with me for the past few days..
shes been dere for me wen i was vomiting all the way..
i simply feel so guilty...
haix....

the entire grp came over to my place y'dae...
incl momo...
had a great time....
but with a heavy hart...
haix...
definitely gotta thank sashi momo and sangee for also being dere for me...
thanks for lending me ur shoulders ppl...
:)
love you guys many many..

n for the first time...
was toking to jordon on the fone...
trust me...
was simply fun..
i was sleeping..
n sangee woke me up and made me tok to him...
n i became wide awake while toking to him...
even heard him sing a lil bit of nenjukkul peithidum song
hehe...
nice guy though...

n rite now...
i am watching tv...
n the biggest joke is..
in history channel...
theres this show going on.... n its titled...
MAHATHIR...
hahaha...
missing u hell loads my dearest bro...
come back faster...
i need u more than anything else...

daddy god..
pls forgive me for everything...
i dunno wat u have in store for me...
cant i jus have a lil clue..?
Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back...don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours!