seriously...i've no other wishes left...

i hate my life so much...
why the hell is all this happening...
i tot everythin ended...
but why is all this starting all over again...??
i dun wan any of this...
even if i was a loner...
i cud have guranteed my own happiness..
but although deres so many ppl ard me...
i cant be as happy at all......
i can only PRETEND...
thats exactly why this two pharases suits me best...
FAKE SMILES...SILENT CRIES...
it wun take me long to jus be myself...
but i hate to explain to other why i'm tat way the reasons why i'm like that...
the person who shud understand ady doesnt understand me...
what more the rest...
how cud i expect more...?

i'm tired of the life i'm living...
i'm only 17 and a half yrs old...
but i dun wan my life anymore...
seriously...
call me selfish o hartless for all i care...
but how i wish i wud jus go to slp tonite not to wake up tomolo...
even if i die...
at most for a few days i'll be rmbed...
n after tat life goes on for everyone else...
thts a very easy way out for me...
at least i wun feel pitied and burdened by others...
there was a time that i cud feel how much u loved me...but nowadays...i dun feel anything anymore...n seriously...i'm totally prepared for the day this relationship falls...i've lost every single hope i had...