why did i..?

i really dunno wats going on...
the only problem here is ME...
nth else...
i keep thinking abt y'dae although everything is over...


why did i go heights y'dae even wen i was so tired...
why did i tell ambi n didi abt the stuff that guru told me...
why did i allow everyone to know wat was happening...
why did i allow ambi to convince me to let guru n vicky cum down to heights...
why did i walk away wen ambi was toking to me...
why did i tok to vicky tat way...
why did i drag her into our prob...
why did tell that i'm tired of this relationship...
why did i pretend as if everything seemed fine...
why do i keep asking myself all the different questions...
why was i crying every now n den today...
why was i running away from everything...
n what wen rong wit me wen i told my mum that i was serious...
arghh...
at this point of time...?
wat the fuck is rong wit me...

i dunno
i dunno
i really really dunno...


i jus feel like going to the chapel in Mount Alvernia Hospital...
n jus sit down there the whole day...
maybe dat wud make me feel BETTER...