i wAs a t0y iN thE aRms 0f a cHild:'(

"once bitten twice shy"....
but for me....
it was more than once....
all i eva did was sit and cry...
forgive him wen he was back...
n carried on in life...

but i was made use of thoroughly by him...
didnt expect it to be HIM duing this to me...
how did he get the hart to...?
i dunno....

i cant believe seeing wateva he msged the gal...
she forwared them to me...
he tot thru so much...
n concluded he loved her..
den wat abt me...??
was i jus a stuff toy...??

my sis wen totally mad at him wen she spoke to selvi...
so she somehow arrannged for guru to come under my block...
vicky..jivi and sangee were dere to...

my sis showed the fone msgs tat selvi forwarded to me...
guru din have anything to say...
he jus agreed tat it was all sent by him to her...
n in dat split second...
my hart crushed down...
i was not dreaming...
n selvi din make anything up..
it was all HIM...
no one else but him...

none of his frenz knew abt it...
not even jivi...
not even vicky....
how heartless cud he get...

n the bottom blame is all mine...
all because i din give him attention...
n selvi did...
i was dat hopeless a galfren...
a gal who doesnt give her guy attention...
who made her guy seek for it from outside...
lol...

i spoke to him awhile back..
n he was practically telling me tat i'm the one he loves...
but in wat condition do i accept him back...?
i can accept him back...
n for tat i have to be a stone hearted person..
which i am not...
i did get emotional for a while wen he cried...
but nah...
i picked myself up again....

he asked me for a story in the midst of this...
n yea..
he got his story...(blog post: my story)
i dunno if the story actually made him realise how much i've gone thru...
haix.
i'm jus a bloody ill-fated unlucky woman....
dats all i wud say....