fUcked uP...l0l

felt totally fucked up with my maths lesson today..
there were only 2 other in my grp..
n the both of them seriously pissed me off totally by toking in chinese among themselves...
seriously...
i dun think they even knew i existed...lol...
i jus got angry i came over to clementi with vaanz...
we met bunny n were jus lepaking near the playground block...
den murali also joined in...

ard 4...
pras...guru annae...n ashok joined in...
but there were like 2 grps toking with each other...
not all of us were toking to one another...
lol...

after tat...
murali was feeling kinda bored n pissed...
so we wen up to 6 floor...
uva...turca n nazi...
but the closeness was totally gone....
like everyone was in their own world...
but yea...
i was all the while chatting with murali...

i dunno why...
but for the first time...
murali told me that he feels like getting attach everytime he sees me n guru..
haha...
i seriously was very shocked...
din expect tat from him of all ppl...lol...
but i noe tat he will definitely get a gal tat he wants...
:)

nieways..
got to see shah,kidd's niece for the first time...
omg..
she's super cute...
cant believe shes a 5 month old baby...
but yea...
din have the guts to carry her..
n yea..
i jus got my damn mail...
i'm suppose to be paying a $75 fine...haix...
gotta appeal tomolo...
fuck it sia...the past is haunting me down...i dun wanna trust anyone anymore...how i wish i cud jus disappear from ur life...arghh....save me daddy god...