he made me feel special too:)

i know that i love him lots...
but he is driving me insane...
i've always forgiven all his mistakes...
but the thing that fears me now is...
wat if he is gonna foreva repeat his mistakes...
n i'm foreva gonna be saying its okie n keeping on forgiving him...
arent i like gonna be faking myself...??
which i'm ady duing...

in order to jus keep this relationship gg...
am i gonna be keep thinking that everything is fine on the outta surface...
wen nth really is fine to ME...
am i gonna jus cry myself to sleep every nite thinking on wat is gonna happen to our future...??
i dunno...

he can say tht now n the future is gonna be different...
but for me...
its gonna be the same...
cos dere mite be a day in the future...
wen the same mistake is made...
n he asks me...
"last time i do u forgave me...now also forgive la"...
my dearest is totally capable of tat...
n to keep the relationship going...
am i gonna forgive...??

all this started with him gg MIA...
it was a kinda small thing..
afterall...
its not his first time...
but tis time...
i got really pissed...
more like i'm tired...
its so not me...
wat happen to me..??
wat has he done to me...??