t0tally sHattEred....

a day has flew past....
i did nothing but rot the whole time...
was not paying attention to anything happening in my e-learning....
wen offline half way..
kinda addicted to the song by David Archuleta...
a little too not over you...
i think the meaning is jus so beautiful...

n yea...
was with kidd for sometime...
toking n joking ard...
ard 5.30...
turca came over...
she wanted to use the com...
while sitting with her...
she told me smth that jus made me wonder who was i
to him afterall....
den samuel called n told me that vickys mother has been admitted in TTSH...
i've even became a third party to vicku...
the guy i treasured so much....
do i deserve all this...??
maybe i do...i deserve worst than all this...

i wen to meet pras n vaanz under my block for abt 15 mins...
they happen to be near by...
mum n sis are home...
n i'm not even excited...
i jus feel like sitting in my room cryng for no reason....
call me a fool for all i care...
but the mistakes are all mine...

i've always said i wanted to be alone...
n now...
i've finally gotten wat i wish for...
thanks a million....n i've told myself dat under any situation...i'm not gonna contact him...i dun have anymore rights to control him...o have a say in his life...not as if i knew he has been going for dance practices to perform insome competition in malaysia...i was his gal den...n i din noe...now i'm no one to him...