l0nely nItez....

its 1.44 in the morning n i just cant sleep....
more like i feel like crying my lungs out....
suppose to call n tok to nabs...
but its kinda late...
i dun wana disturb that swithart....

nieways...
kinda irritated with kash...
i really wonder if she is the one who showed her mum my pics with guru...
arghh...
its jus extra probs for me now...
i dunno wat to say la...
even if my mum is okiee with my love life...
i have relatives who claim to have their share of rights to condemn me..
like wat the fuck....arghh...heck it....

i spoke to nabs just now....
finally told her everything dat as been going o for te past few days...
n i kept asking her if the mistakes were mine...
but she kept saying no....
i was like shes happens to be my fren...
thats why shes supporting me...haix
but she is no beta...
shes having probs with suf...
arghh...she doesnt need to suffer that way at all...i jus dun understand why are things happening this way...
nieways...happy 38 months anni syg:)
i and she always laugh n cry at the same time...
that exactly why she is my bestest bestie no mata wat...
n wats even more wierd is that esther is also having prob with her guy...l0l...
all the 3 of are in need of each other at the same time...

n yea..
maha finally called me...
i was jus so damn happy....
my mum was also speaking to him for a while....
i'm looking forward to see this monkey....
iMy:'(but seriously...this is the first time i'm totally like chilled although i'm not with him....not even a bit of fear that he will leave me....maybe cos he gave me his word o....err...forget it....but he is stil driving me insane...i rather he jus not tell me where he is....out at chalet tonite...lol...