:P

i woke up today jus to feel horrible...
last nite was totally a disaster...
i still dunno wat came over me...
i was kinda mad...
i dunno why i chose to pick a fite wit my guy...
firstly...maybe cos i was pissed..
secondly...cos i was outta my mind...arghh...
k fine...
i dun wanna tok abt it...

i was at home the whole time today rotting...lol..
nothing new...
watching movie...
toking on the fone wit vanz...
playing wit kaiser...n yea...
counting the hours to meet my guy...!!!

i finally met my guy at abt 8.20...
he wasnt alone...
he was wit vicky...
i missed tat fellow lots actually...
but i dunno why...
i dun wanna meet them as often as i used to...
i wanna stay away from them for certain reasons...

i really had lots to tok to my guy...
but not all of it came out...
onli bits n pieces...
i jus wanted a hug...
seriously...
last nite wen i told guru to meet me..
it was for no other reason other than wanting a big hug from him...
n wen i got tat hug from him today...
i jus lost control of my tears...
sigh...

whether o not...
things always seem different from toking on the fone n meeting...
at least i noe he was next to me...
n today was like the first time i fed him his dinner...
hehe...had lots n lots of fun...
but as usual...
happy moments dun last long...
by 10.50 i started looking at the clock knowing that he was gonna leave....
how i wish the clock wud jus stay still...arghh....
till the end i jus yearned for him to stay longer...(stubborn in his terms)
but i dunno why...
things tat happen last nite...n words tat were used are jus going thru my mind again n again...
its feels like a total nitemare...