i dunno why...
its jus like a continuous series of stuff happening....
its all totally hurtful....
i jus cudnt control my emotions today morning...
wen i woke up...
i jus screamed my lungs out n cried...
i really din noe wat else to do....
i jus cant control my tears...
maybe they were jus meant to come out...
after tat...
i jus decided tat if i continued staying at home...
i was definitely gonna end my killing myself...
so i decided to go to RP wit vanz...
but before meeting vanz...
i met pras...i had my lunch wit her n hanged ard for a while before vanz came...
after vanz came...we took 963 straight to RP...
otw...vanz n i had lots to tok...
wen we reached woodlands...
we were kinda shocked...
dere were so many indian guys...
whichever chance i got...
i jus distracted myself...
i din wanna think abt anything o anyone...
we seriously had lots of fun at the one stop centre...
for all the crazy things tat vanz did...
i jus cudnt stop laughing...
he was kinda making a fool outta herself...
but i enjoyed it...
vanz really liked the new me whom she saw today...
someone wit the dun give a damn abt anything attitude...
but yea...i did tell her tat i still have my soft spot no mata wat...
it jus tat i'm hiding it...
n yea...she did understand wat i said..
ard 5 plus i wen to my grandparents place...
i din wanna go back home as there was no one ard...
my mum came back from malaysia at abt 7 plus n picked me up...
she took me to sunset way to buy kaiser's food...
but that was the biggest mistake she did...
we walked past the animal clinic where benji was last left...
i jus cudnt stop thinking abt him...
i jus started tearing...
i dunno why...
but i'm so badly missing him...
dere was something to him tat always made my day brighter...
dere can neva eva be anyone who can make me hapi as he did...
n i really mean dat...
maybe wen he died...
my happiness was really meant to disappear...
n i'm not saying tat for fun...
it appears to be true...
i dunno why...
but i think i'm gonna jus go away from everyone one of these days...
i wanna be a loner...
i dun wan anyone to care for me...
n i dun wanna care for anyone...
tats the real me...
n that's wat i wanna be...
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Babe, wish i was dere to give u a massive hug!!! Sometimes simple actions mean way more den a 1000 words said... Love ya... Things will get better k...
Naan iruka bayam yen...aalatha chello! ehehe
thanks ma...
wud u believe me...
the whole thingy was typed out as i was crying...n i'm totally drained now...i dunno la gal...wat else is in store for me....but i'm certain of one thing...I'M SUPER WEAK...i cant handle anything ready...
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