confused...

i really wish i cud start skool asap...
i dun wanna be at home anymore...
after toking to my sis last nite...
i dun even noe if i actually wanna go to RP of all polys...
its cos guru is dere...
i dunno if i'll be able to stay dere if anything was to happen to my relationship...

i dunno wats rong wit him...
but i realise dat nowadays wen he is angry o smth...
he jus says wateva he wants...
it doesnt occur to him tat its hurting me...
i feel very very hurt...
our relationship seems very rocky to me...
if it is already like dat now...
wat more wen we start schooling...?
i really starting to feel very confused....
i dunno wat to do...

i'm going to watch movie wit esther and jahan tomolo...
yay!bride wars....
cant wait...
jus sad tat nabs syg cant come...
i wanna meet nabs soon...
sigh...miss her lots...