i rEallY dunn0 wHy i'm liKe dIs...

u noe...
nowadays i feel tat i'm so bad towards guru...
i dunno why...
but suddenly i wana keep him away from him...
i've been trying to tell him tat...
but he keeps taking it as a joke...
even last nite we kinda had a small arguement...
i dun rmb wat on earth i said...
but he started bringing up that i wana get to noe the new guys in MSN....
but he doesnt noe tat since he told me he doesnt like me getting to noe guys...
i've already deleted all those 5 guys...
i seriously dun c any reason on why i must get to noe other jerks wen i already have him...
i wonder if guru thinks i'll eva leave him for other guys...
but seriously....i noe i'll neva...
i jus love him lots....
sigh...i really dunnno wat to do with this guy...

just now i was at the clinic wit my grandma...
i was kinda looking ard wen i came across a poster...
it was abt DEPRESSION....
there were nine things listed out as symptoms of depression...
to my horror...
i'm suffering from all the nine...
i seriously cant believe it...
i'm starting to get tat spliting headache which i used to get again...
i think i'm gonna go to the clinic n get the stress relieving pills again...
maybe i really need them...
my onli problem now is i dunno wat is the course for me being like dis...
i'm going crazy...
i jus wana get back to skool...
i jus wana be wit nabs ..maha...n gang...
its onli wen i'm wit them that i dun pretend...
i'm really jus so hapi...
i really wanna meet them all soon...
i'll be hapi if at least one from the grp gets into the same poly as me...
doesnt have to be the same course....even if it is jus the poly i'm fine...
at least i noe there is someone there for me in tat stupid new environment....
sigh :|
i'm glad i at least chatted wit jahan n spoke to nabs y'dae...
no mata wat...this ppl will always be apart of me...
love you guys...