i was his lil pwincess..! not anymore:'(

caught this movie with jahan & guru...
a movie dat i neva expected that i wud survive...
lol...
but i did...i think jahan was far way worst than me..!
hehehehe

after the movie...
i n jahan met ishu n bunny and wen to paya lebar to collect jaans pay...
than we took a long ride from there to bishan...
n from bishan till toh guan...
spend almost 1 1/2 hrs on the bus ride..
where i jus slept thru...
hehehe...

after that i wen to toh guan...
till i reached my grandparents door step...
i was bubbly...happy...etc...
n after that...
grrrr...
i still cant believe wateva that happened...

grandpa i n started toking abt my education...
n both of us started crying...
i really noe that i've disappointed him tons...
i have my reasons...
but nothing can be sad to undo the hurt i've inflicted on him...
after all...
he had the highest hopes on me...
i really felt sorry for making my grandpa cry for the first time all cos of me...
i felt so ashamed of myself...

i jus left the hse...
wen to a place where no one cud see me...
i jus screamed my lungs out n cried...
n lucky sashi was dere to hear me out..
:) thanks bbyboo..!

i really hope i can be grandpa's lil angel once again...
i can neva face the fact that I made my grandpa cry...
i definitely will do wat it takes to be the one he wans me to be....
which means...
i'll do anything..!!!
i shud be heading to MDIS next week to get started...
i think a lot of tym has been wasted...
n one thing for sure...
gg back to school...
will the bet distraction from many things for me...

i tot the movie was a nightmare...
but neva did i expect my day to turn into one:'(
n its only in times of need where ppl understand who will be there...
n who wun...

& i still believe..
that i have the bestest grandparents in the whole wide world...
n i love them tons...
:)
muacks....