can everything jus standstill..?

i wonder whether tym is running slow o fast...
fast cos it ady june...
n slow cos i realise i am rotting my life away simply lifeless and there neva seems to be anything to do...

was on the fone with alvin n sashi till almost 5...
den we decided to meet ard 6...
n from 5 to 6...
i was toking to Shawn...hehe...
fun guy...down to earth i can say..
bt not my type...

got ready n left my hse ard 6.30...
met alvin n wen to eat prata as usual...
n after that...
met chix n raja n sent them off to the mrt station...
n walked back home...

i wen crazy helping alvin search for a job...
oh god...
i pitied myself...
so many things to see thru till i felt so sleepy(result of being awake the entire nite)
i slept in the room...
while alvin dozed off in the hall...

but before i realised...
wen i woke up...
it was 11.25...n wen i rubbed my eyes...it was 4.55pm...
lol...
n alvin wasnt ard:'(

by 6...
alvin bunny ishu sashi jaanu all came over...
we were jus sitting down n thinking off wat the plans for alvins b'day was gonna be...
haix...
how i wish money wud jus drop from the sky...
grrrrrr

by 7 all left the hse...
didi is off to m'sia...
sashi n ishu chao...
raja n chix came...

n wen crazy waiting for almost an hour for those 2 to have their damn haircut...
grrrr
n by 9...
all off us wen back...

lepaking is no longer fun...
esp wen everyones in their own world...
i dunno wats up with bunny...
but i wish she wud jus tok out to someone than jus keep in silence n repeat that she has a headache...

n yea..
something is bothering me...
why am i like this now...
like wtf...
i hate this me...
gotta get something done...
sobxx...
i wanna run n hide myself i dunno whr...
but i wish i cud jus save some tears...
&& now i pray nothing happens to my babyboo..
i'm getting worried...
i so wish he would jus stay away from trouble..
i need him all the time...
a day without toking to him...
i simply go mad...
haix...
hopefully nothing happens to him..
n all i wanna do is go to slp peacefully jus for one nite...
panadols pls come to my rescue..!(& i deleted all my post...cos it doesnt seem worth anymore)