Welcoming 2010..

wen off to church for the countdown for new year...
but dunno why...
the mood jus wasnt dere...
n yea...
i wasnt use to the atmosphere at all...
haix...
i miss NCC...
have to get back dere soon..

i rmb the pastor saying to declare all the bad stuffs that i've came across in the yr 09...
n i cud only declare one thing...my heartbreaks

nieways...
my sharp midnight started with me hugging bunny n crying...
i dunno why..
wen i tot of my 08 & 09...
only tears came...
nothing else...

will 2010 be any better...??
i really wish it will be...
cos i'm not prepared to live those 2 yrs once again...
its really tiring...
grrrr

was kinda emoed for a while...
esp with all the ppl ard me asking me why i was having a sad face wen i shud be happy it was new yr...
lol...
it mite have been new year...
but my mind was not thinking abt enjoyingthe new year wen it was ady filled with smth else disturbing me...

but i definitely did have a great time with sangee...michal...vicku...sashi...govan...thanesh...bunny...didi... and guru...
drinkin and smoking the nite away...
n also singing n having lots of fun...
haha...
the next i ton will be very long from now...
sobs:(

And my new year resolutions:
1)To dedicate time for god once a week...which means start going to church...
2)To be that gal tat i once used to be...**innocent**
3)Start saving money..!!!!!!!!
4)Stop being nice to jus everyone...
5)To forget certain unpleasant moments of my life which i hope i can...
6)Stop pretending..!!(fakesmiles)
7)To stop smoking...if i can...lol 8) To neva stop loving him under any condtions...