fakesmiles

skipped school once again...
after all the crying...
jus cudnt get myself back to sleep..
lol...

seriously...
can someone jus tell me...
where...wat wen rong...??
i was so scared i wud do wat i did the first time round...
so i've given practically everything tat has given me to bunny to keep...
lol...its safe for now...

i was at clementi at 9 plus in the morning...
was jus sitting down alone n reflecting about my screwed up life...
n decided to go to lil quilin with bunny ard 1...
den later met sashi...vicky...sara...

i was seriously so happy to see vicky n sashi today...
esp vicky...
he came to see me...
jus to find out i'm waiting to give him one of the most shocking news...
sashi was more than prepared to chao class halfway jus to come be with me...
like super swit la...

we ended up in clementi ard 5 plus...
n were all the way slacking...
i was being totally blamed for asking for the break...
but wat else cud i do...?
stick with him knowing he has no more feelings for me..??

i came back home ard 10.30...
i told my mum not to contact guru unless he msgs o calls her...
she asked why...
so i jus told her tat something wen rong with me somewhere....
so i wanna stay away from him for a while....
i cant imagine telling her tat i n he broke...
ady she is so damn hurt with andrew...
i cant imagine seeing her more hurt cos of another son...
haix....

lastly...
i really thank vicky...bunny n sashi for really being dere...
none of us expected this....
but yea.
it has happened...he did msg me for the day...but in that msg...he also told me tat the love he used to feel for me...is ady missing...den how do i patch with him..??its totally impossible for now...lets jus wait n see wat happen....