i miss you boths tons....

i jus cant force myself to sleep....
i'm jus feeling so damn down...
n i cant explain myself...
if mimi was alive...
i wud have been all the while entertained by him ...
laughin the nite away...
but i'm not lucky to have him with me...
n if benji was alive...
i wud have jus cuddled him...
let him lick away all my tears...
n gone to sleep peacefully...
n i'm not fortunate to have him either...

i really miss those days lots...
in fact...
its mimi dat i'm thinking abt more...

my lil gift from god wen i needed someone more than jus a a pair of listening ears...
he was able to brighten my day jus by duing all kinda stunts that i neva saw other cats duing...
i still am clueless why god gave him to me...
wen he planned to take him away a few months later...
mimi mite have always been a stray cat...
but before he left the world...
i only rmb telling him tat he my MINE...
not even my mums...
jus mine...
god sen him jus for me to be happy...
n maybe...
wen god finally tot i was really happy...
he decided not to let me have 2 happiness...
so he took away one...
the one that made me happier....
i really hate god for tat...
hate him so much...

someone read me a sms saying ...
neva to feel hurt that your loved ones die...
dats cos...
god loves them so much more...
thats why he took them to be with him...
so do i assume that god doesnt love me...??loli wish u would love me more than anyone god...pls do:)