i'm s0 l0nely...

i'm really very hurt...
be it whether its my sis...mother...grandparents..frenz....
dere is so many things gg on...
n i'm jus left to pretend...
like everything is so damn fine..

at first...
i use to pretend for a day o two...
now its like pretendin everyday...
even wen i'm angry o hurt...
i gotta pretend that i'm so happy with everything n everyone...
but i'm so tired of pretending...
at the same time...
i cant open my mouth and jus tel ppl off...
as much as i wish...lol...
argh....

i'm feeling so lonely...
all my besties are somehow dere for me...
without a doubt...
but i cant seem to tok much abt anything to them...
no cos i dun want to...
but cos i dunno where to start...lol...

haix...
dere is dis person whom i suddenly feel like meeting up with...
jus sit down and let her try her best to tok crap n irritate me...
hehe...
maybe i'll ask her out soon...!!

is dere some form of entertainment for me...??
i cant believe i'm starting to read twilight again...
it keeps me going...lol...