it totally sucks...

i dunno wats happening...
since morning i've been in a bad mood...
i even broke down cryin at bb MRT...
i'm jus hurt over everything y'dae...
the past whole week is jus not right..
i've been crying like every bloody day...

n yea..now its like no beta...
after so long...
i feel like i'm beta off dead...
i dun wan my life anymore...
it totally sucks...

wtf did u create me this way...?
too nice...too naive...?
jus for ppl to make use of me...?
thanks a million...

n guru...
u have to satisfy your 2 grps of frenz...
and yea...
u dun have a choice in tat...
but i'm rather shocked with your sentence
"thEres a sOul dEpending oN mE whO i Have tO sAtisfy..."
i feel as if i'm some unwanted burden on u...
like u have to satisfy me unwillingly....
jus wat do i ask u for...?
spend time with me...
meet me...
call me...
is tat too much to ask for...?
maybe it is...
k nvm...
i'll stop depending on you...
i'll neva ask u for anything anymore...
u can satisfy your frenz..
thats more than enuf...
i dun wanna add pressure to u anymore...
i'm sorry if i had pressured u in anyway without realising it...
u dun even noe tat u're indirectly hurting me so damn much...its thanks to u dat i feel i'm beta of dead..
was loving u my mistake...?even if u had hit me it wouldnt have hurt this much...but this is jus so hurting...thanks for everything...