feelin totally lifeless...

i was sleeping in the bus on the way home...
n i dunno wat wen rong...
i had a nitemare...
i had slit my wrist and
it was bleeding so horribly...

i dunno why...
but i'm jus feeling totally lifeless...
i feel so gd one moment...n i feel fucked up another moment...
n its all not cos i'm pmsing...
but its jus like tat..
after so long...
i yearned to be held in someones arms...
but weneva i really need a hug...
o a person to tok to...
thats wen i wun b able to find one...
esp now dat nabs is also not wid me....
if i was in sec sch...
i wud definitely not be feeling this way..
its nt as if something happen...
its jus that i wan someone to tok to...
thats all...
i dun wanna feel so lonely...

i wen over to muralis place after sch...
he..nazi...n turca were dere...
we sat on toked for very long...
after tat murali n nazi left to go to clementi to meet barney..
but i was jus feeling too tired to travel...
so i was wit turca till almost 9...
sitting down n toking so much...
hehe...
we had lots to tok man...lol...
n now...i'm back home...
jus feeling so damn tired...